Memorable Monday Musings: What was on YOUR wall?

If you close your eyes, can you still smell the Love’s Baby Soft you used before school? Or maybe the scent of that one favourite lip gloss? 🥰

There is something so powerful about realizing that the “investigator” in me wasn’t born in a lab or a clinic. It was born in a bedroom filled with posters of athletes and detectives while I was searching for my own “why.”

My “Great Wall of the ‘70s and ‘80s” was a mix of perma-smiles and performance. Looking back, the clues to my life’s mission were always pinned to those walls:

• The Athletes: Nadia Comăneci and the gravity-defying Mikhail Baryshnikov. I was mesmerized by the discipline, the focus and the grace of movement. 🤸‍♀️🩰

• The Detectives: The Hardy Boys and Charlie’s Angels. I’ve always loved a good mystery, trying to answer why people do what they do. 🔍

• The Musical Souls: The Bay City Rollers, Donny & Marie and the Osmonds, Sonny & Cher, Supertramp and Madonna. I was drawn to those “tortured poets” and soothing harmonies that felt like a hug for the heart. 🎶

• The “Dream” Families: I loved the shows Family, The Waltons, The Brady Bunch and Eight Is Enough. I couldn’t understand how large families got along when my tiny family of 4 was rooted in chaos.🙏

Tucked between those posters was my rosary. As a young girl who sang in the choir and assisted with weddings, I spent many nights kneeling beside my bed—not because my home was a sanctuary, but because I was creating one.

In the midst of a childhood rooted in chaos rather than love, I spent those nights bartering with the Universe to help me find the root cause of the suffering around me.

I would ask the darkness: Why didn’t Dad want to see his kids? What did I do so wrong that made me unlovable? 🌑📿

Looking back, I see that the Peace Pathologist and Forensic practitioner were already waking up. I was investigating the “why” behind the pain even then, while the world was telling me to just be “logical.”

Repairing the Leaky Walls Within

Today, as a root-cause Buddhist biohacker, I’ve moved from “keeping the peace” to finding it within our biology. I’ve traded those paper posters for a deep dive into our biological walls.

The “Mould Magnet” in Our Environment

In my work, we focus on the “leaky” barriers that often begin to crumble after age 40. Just like the walls of a home that are leaking, our internal “fences” need maintenance to keep us safe and sound.

But we must also look at the physical walls around us. If you are living under a flat roof, be mindful—these can often become a “mould magnet” if they aren’t properly maintained. Just as a leaky roof invites toxins into your sanctuary, a leaky biological barrier invites inflammation into your body.

For the high-sensing soul, a “non-toxic nest” isn’t just a luxury; it is a biological necessity for peace. When we repair the flat roofs and the leaky walls of our external environment, we give our internal barriers the space they need to heal and find their rhythm again.

We have over 40 of these barriers, including the Gut Axis, the Blood-Brain Barrier and our Lung, Skin and Joint Barriers.

When these internal walls become leaky, we lose our rhythm. We feel “logical” but disconnected. My mission remains the same: saving the lives of those drowning with a life-threatening “leaky body” by repairing those internal walls so they can stop “leaking” energy and start living with a soulful, non-attached love.

Rooted in Love

As I look back on those “posters and prayers,” I realize I am no longer just a seeker of peace. I have found the “why” I was searching for because my moments are now filled with the deepest love I have ever known: the love for my own inner child.

By honouring my unique biology and repairing those internal walls, I am finally resting in peace. After a lifetime of insomnia rooted in the leaky chaos of the past, I have finally found the gift of deep, restorative sleep.

I want to hear from you in the comments:
What poster defined the “younger you”?
Looking at what you were attracted to then... have you found your “why” yet?

Are you ready to stop seeking and start resting?
💜🥰☮️🌎🙏

Sending Loving Kindness from Canada’s Capital,
Dee
Momma-Lovey Peace
DestresswithDee SOS

My Great Wall of the '70s & '80s: Every poster was a clue to the Peace Pathologist I was becoming.

Happy May 1st.

We are entering a month dedicated to Mental Health Awareness, but from a functional perspective, we must address the “Environmental Injury” and poisoning.

Many of us are “Petrified Athletes”—Type A, high-achieving firstborn fixers who have lived in a state of high tension since the womb.

We were raised to push, to perform and to be the “third parent.”

This chronic stress creates a body that is stuck in a “Shark Tank” response called the Cell Danger Response and CIRS (Chronic Inflammatory Response Syndrome) driven by chronic stress.

It is not burnout. You are not a machine. Your human animal needs biological stillness to feel safe to heal.

This is often why, despite “doing all the things,” you may still struggle with a bloated, hard belly.

The Power of the Soft Belly

My journey into biological stillness began with a week-long silent retreat with Susan Child in 2017 when I took my power back from addictions to rest in peace now.

She taught me a phrase that changed my life: “Soft Belly.”

For the gymnast, the runner or the dancer, “holding it in” is a survival mechanism. But true healing begins when we fall in love with our inner child and allow that belly to soften.

Your stillness is your strength.

When we move out of the Shark Tank and into biological stillness, we allow our bodies to finally use natural binders to detox what no longer serves us.

Functional Tea Tips for the Professional Ritual

De-stressing is a biological necessity, not a luxury that I teach on our first semester at Skool with 155 future Soul & Soil Growth Peace Doulas using the BodhiBerry Peace Tree Method.

Our community is for those who are sober, holistic and med free many of us had our tonsils out before we were 2 and are divorced parents with sick kids.

If you are drowning with an overheated leaky body and no one understands what is going on with you, you are likely losing your mind and your hope.

I give you the tools to heal yourself with the DBM-5 frugally, fast and at a slow pace.

Reply to this email if you wish to know more.

The Lunar Reset

Tonight is a Full Moon. I’ll be setting out my filtered water to catch those lunar rays. It’s a simple, zero-cost way to reset your intentions and energy for the month ahead.

Your worth is not in the push. It is in the pause. 🙏

Note for my HSP readers:

If you are currently in a state of high tension and find reading difficult, you can listen to this article directly through the Substack app.

Look for the headphone icon to let the words wash over you instead.

True stewardship starts within.

When we refuse what isn’t compostable, we stop the toxic flush into our bodies and our soil.

We are the living solution to the global recycling crisis.

I will not be online in a year once the book is out because electronics cause harm to HSPs and our peaceful energy.

Join us now while the digital door is still open.

Seal the leaks. Find your stillness.

Sending Loving Kindness from Ottawa, remember:

You are love You are peace 🙏

You are the medicine for your human animal.

As within, so without. 🌕💧

Dee
Non-Toxic Mom to Noah in our non-toxic nest for c-ptsd peace on a poisonous planet🙏☮️🌎💜

Dear Sweet Sober Souls and Seekers of Peace,

Yesterday we established the compost rule on Microbiome, Mould, Mental Health, Menopause & Mother Earth Monday (I love alliterations).

If you can’t put it in your bin you don’t put it in your body.

Today we look at the trauma that makes us ignore that rule.

As HSP “oops babies” and firstborn fixers we were programmed to soothe the world.

We took on the “Firstborn Flush”—the literal and emotional toxins passed down through the womb.

We grew up into high-achievers pushing our human animals (my name for mine is Sunny Dee) to the brink in toxic gyms and airtight offices.

We are too proud to ask for help while we drown in a leaky inflamed body and brain.

This is not a mental health crisis.

It is an environmental injury and poisoning for me.

We must affect change by March 17 2027.

This is the date when the system will allow us to expire before we desire based on “mental” grounds.

We cannot let environmental poisoning be the silent reason for that choice when the root cause is the fast things we put in and on our body and in our home.

Who we love and the air we breathe is toxic.

For the divorced single mom we are the most stressed on the planet because we are doing 3 jobs to make the same as a man does because the father won’t pay what he should by law for child support.

We don’t have the money to fight the legal system.

So we push harder as a gogo perfectionist never asking for help.

You are in a cell danger response so you are unable to relax while watching a show because there is always something to do.

This is why we relax de-stressing as stress cleaners for our sanctuary and cozy nest.

It is time for the sacred pause/paws.

Detox your womb and your walls.

Build your non-toxic nest.

When we soothe our soul we save our soil.

Mother Earth thrives when we stop the push and start the repair.

Thank you to the community and mentors like Sarah Roberts who was the first person to share with me that we should name our human animal.

When I graduated from a 3 year eating disorder program in half the time I learned a tool to talk to my inner child. Thank you Isabelle for that beautiful tip.

I let Little Dee know that I have finally shown up for her and I am giving her the love she was seeking in others.

My life is full and I will be ending my days solo leading a life of service because I have spent a lifetime caring for others and still do.

The rest of my moments are filled with pausing in stillness with pure joy and childlike wonder now that my lifelong fear is gone knowing the root cause of my issues

Watch the Deep Dive and learn the top professions for mould illness, what is sick building syndrome and how everything is connected.
Just like you and me :)

The 60-Second Proof
https://youtube.com/shorts/lgq6t07rH4s

Sending Loving Kindness from Canada’s Capital
Dee
Non-Toxic Mom to Noah’s Non-Toxic Nest
If it doesn’t go in the compost, we don’t put it in our body.

“We are taught to lead with love for everyone else, often by becoming a ‘servant’ to their needs. But the real leadership begins with leading our own soul out of toxic energy. Staying in toxic, dark environments triggers a Cell Danger Response (CDR) that affects your cells and your children’s. The most loving act you can take is to remove yourself from the darkness. Today we are celebrating a member of Dee’s Dharma on 4 days of Alcohol Peace! That is true soul leadership.”

The Myth of the “Selfless Servant”

For decades, many of us—especially the parentified first-born fixers—have operated under a false narrative. We believed that to “Lead with Love” meant to be a silent observer of our own destruction. We did the dishes, we managed the household and we held the “Mickey Mouse” nights of white rum or the 60 oz weekends just to quiet the screaming in our souls.

Mickey Mouse and I share a Birthday, and I drank a mickey of rum most nights for 30 years. Minus when I was pregnant. We thought we were protecting the peace. In reality, we were bartering with the universe, trading our biological health for a temporary, toxic quiet.

The Biology of the “Dark Energy”

When you remain in a toxic environment, your body isn’t just “stressed”—it is in a Cell Danger Response (CDR). This is a metabolic shutdown. Your cells stop communicating, your mitochondria stop producing energy for growth and they go into a “defence” mode.

This isn’t just about you. Your children’s cells and souls are tuned into your frequency. When you are in biological lockdown, they feel the “dark energy” too. You cannot “clean eat” or exercise your way out of a toxic environment. You cannot “biohack” a soul-wound while you are still sleeping in a tent of tension.

The Macro & Micro Leak: As Above, So Below

We must realise that our “fast fixes” don’t just stop at our skin. These fast foods, fast sugars and fast boozes are drowning Mother Earth in the same way they drown our cells. With only 9% of materials being recycled globally, we are witnessing a planetary crisis—a leaky Mother Earth.

This isn’t a coincidence; it is a mirror. A leaky planet and a leaky body are connected. When we use toxic “fast” solutions to soothe our internal pain, we contribute to the external waste that is suffocating the environment. To heal one, we must begin to heal the other.

The “Inside Job” of Alcohol Peace

If you are currently self-soothing with “fast” toxins—fast food, fast sugar, fast booze and fast fashions—it is time to stop the self-sabotage. Your brain only knows what you tell it. If you are grabbing for that bottle, ask yourself the HALT questions:

• Hungry?

• Angry?

• Lonely?

• Tired?

Those aren’t cravings. Those are inner child wounds that need to be nurtured, not drowned.

Celebrating the Milestone

True soul leadership is what we are seeing today in our community. One of our own at Dee’s Dharma is now 4 days into her Alcohol Peace journey. She is no longer bartering. She is finally showing up for her inner child—the soul that has been waiting 50 years (or 27 or 16) to be protected. She is telling her cells: “We are safe now.”

Protecting the Nest

Earth Day is every day, but the most important environment you will ever manage is the one inside your skin. Unless you are an “Oops Baby” who was the 3rd parent, you must parent your own soul and cells to find C-PTSD Peace and rest in peace now in your moments.

Remove the dark energy. Draw the boundary. Finally, allow yourself the deep, restful sleep that comes when you stop being a servant to the toxic and start being a leader of your own light. You aren’t a ‘disorder’—you are a High-Sensing Person responding to a toxic Matrix.

As an Oops Baby Firstborn Fixer, your body has been carrying the burden for too long. Let’s seal the 40+ leaky barriers and return to your natural design.

I am here for you. If you are suffering and you want to stop, reach out. We lead with love, starting from the inside out.

Sending Loving Kindness from my heart to yours,
Dee
Non-Toxic Mom to Noah’s Non-Toxic Nest in a Toxic World.
Earth Age 59.5 & Cellular Age 41

The System Calls it Mental. The Earth Calls it Environmental.
You my Love, are not broken or a burden. The system is Broken. You are now out of the Matrix and safe with me.

This ancient truth—As within, so without—is the foundation of my work in environmental health.

The current state of our Earth is being mirrored directly in our own microbiomes.

When we look at the “atom” level of our health, we see that our cells are in a constant, invisible dialogue with our surroundings.

If the environment is toxic, the Cell Danger Response remains activated, regardless of our genetic potential.

If your “nest” is toxic—through the food you eat, the air you breathe, the water you drink or even the heavy Soul energy you surround yourself with—your Cell Danger Response (CDR) stays “on.” It’s a biological lockdown that ignores your genetic potential in favour of survival.

This is the root of the “alphabet soup” of chronic illness:

HLA-DR: When these markers are present, your body is “blind” to environmental toxins.

CIRS: The persistent inflammation that follows when toxins can’t leave.

MCAS & Histamine Overload: Your mast cells (the guards) stay on high alert, dumping histamine because they never receive a signal of safety.

Understanding markers like HLA-DR and MTHFR isn’t just about reading a report; it’s about understanding how to return the body to a state of peace.

At 59.5 years old with a cellular age of 41, I am living proof that we can rewire this connection.

You are nature. Let’s learn to navigate your biological map together.

Sending Loving Kindness from Canada’s Capital,
Dee
Wishing you peaceful stools, sleep, cells, soil & Soul, It’s all connected.

Want to dive deeper into why our microbiome is reflecting the state of the planet?

Listen to the latest episode on Spotify where I break down the root cause of this environmental reflection.

Sending Loving Kindness from Canada’s Capital,
Dee
Wishing you peaceful cells, stools & soul

We’ve been told we are ‘broken’ by the DSM-5, but this Firstborn Friday, we are looking at the DBM-5 (Dee’s Biological Map).

It is time to stop treating your body like a trash can and treat it like the temple it is.

How we treat our bodies is a reflection of how we are treating Mother Nature.

We are dismantling the “Nine Percent Deception” and looking at the truth of Environmental Poisoning.

In today’s Deep Dive, you will learn:

• The 5 D’s: How to De-Stress, Detox, De-bloat, Declutter to finally find deep sleep with C-PTSD peace on a poisonous planet.

• The “Canary” Reality: Why firstborn daughters feel the toxicity of this earth first and how to stop being invisible to the system.

• Microbiome and Mother Earth: The direct link between misophonia, menopause and the poisoned air we breathe inside and out.

• The MAID Mission: Why I am fighting to change Canadian laws before “mental health” is used as a reason to expire those who are actually environmentally poisoned.

You are Nature. And nature can heal but not in the same environment that made it sick.

It is time to stop being the “parentified” people pleasing child who fixes everyone else and start being the sovereign woman who heals herself and her anxious kids.

Your worth is not in the push.

It is the pause.

Your cells and souls are waiting for you to parent them back to safety.

It can not happen in a go go go sympathetic stressed state. You are causing harm to your cells keeping them in a cell danger response.

How you treat your Soul determines the health of your cells, anxiety, sleep and the health of Mother Earth.

It is all connected.

We are dismantling the 'Nine Percent Deception' because our addictions to man-made meds and toxic 'fixes' are responsible for 90% of the toxic waste in our bodies and on our planet.

Learn why we heal only using mother natures medicine cabinet. My method does not work if you take man made meds, they are toxic to our microbiome and cells.

It is time to stop the dismissal. We are not “wild of mind” without cause; we are reacting to a world that has forgotten how to be non-toxic.

I have never relied on man made meds in 45 years and at 59.5 I have all my original body parts, even my wisdom teeth.

Only my tonsils were removed at 6 months because I was born in a toxic womb in toxic walls as a firstborn daughter.

“What is happening to the Earth is happening to our bodies.”

Learn more on YouTube how to heal yourself and this Spotify deep dive:

Sending Loving kindness from Canada’s Capital.
Dee
Non-Toxic Mom to Noah in our Non-Toxic Nest for c-ptsd peace on a poisonous planet.

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Dear Peaceful Hearts,

Today is Earth Day 2026 and I am coming to you with a heart that is heavy, yet burning with a hopeful fire. This might be my last Earth Day with you if we cannot change the laws in this coming year.

As many of you know, I have been living on $100 a month for food since the fall of 2024, getting weaker physically while my spirit grows more determined.

My son Noah and I spoke recently, as this is our last year under one roof. I asked myself:
in this final stretch, would I rather be relaxing my toes in the sand or keep fighting for the Highly Sensitive Persons (HSPs) of the world?

Noah knew the answer before I said it—I will keep fighting on every day I have the energy.

This video, this message, is my legacy.
Please share it.

People are dying by suicide because they think something is “wrong” with them. There is nothing wrong. Our bodies are biological instruments warning us of environmental danger.

🔍 For the Health Detectives & Matrix-Breakers

For those of you who live for the deep dives—the truth-seekers who need the hard facts and the science of how things actually work outside the matrix—this is for you.
We are connecting the dots between broken global systems and your internal biology.

If you need the “receipts” on how our environment is being engineered against our physiology, listen to the full deep dive on YouTube or Spotify.

The Overheating Earth and the Leaky Body

We have been sold a “circular” dream since the 1980s that was nothing more than a marketing shield.

The truth is that only 9% of recycling actually makes it back into the system.
The other 91%—the fast fashion, the plastic containers, the booze cans—is clogging our oceans, our soil and most importantly, our cells.

During this Stress Awareness Month and Addiction Awareness Month, we must realize that the chronic stress of the Earth is mirroring the chronic stress in our tissues.

We are witnessing a “Venus Syndrome” on the planet—a runaway greenhouse effect—and it is manifesting in our bodies as a Cytokine Storm.

We are living in energy-efficient “toxic containers”.

Our airtight windows keep the heat in but they also trap mould, mycotoxins and off-gassing plastics.

For the HSP and the Firstborn Daughter, these chemicals are breaching our 40 leaky body barriers and entering the womb. This isn’t just burnout—it is a biochemical SOS.

Challenging the DSM-5 with the DBM-5

The system calls it “mental”. The Earth calls it environmental. It is time to move away from the DSM-5 and embrace the DBM-5 Protocol to address the 5 M’s of the modern crisis:

• Mould: The invisible gas from flooded basements that hacks the nervous system and triggers CIRS.

• Microbiome: Our internal garden that is being decimated by plastics and “man meds”.

• Menopause: Which is often actually MCAS and histamine overload from a lifetime of stored toxins.

• Mental Health: A label used to ignore the Cell Danger Response (CDR) and environmental poisoning.

• Mother Nature: Our only true medicine cabinet. We cannot heal in the same environment that made us sick.

The Toxic Occupational Landscape

If you are suffering in silence, look at where you spend your time. Our modern buildings are making us sick. From schools with flat roofs to planes filled with “bleed air” and hospitals mirroring parentified-child dynamics, our environments are forcing our bodies into sympathetic overdrive.

The Way Home: The 5 D’s to Seal the Leaks

To my tribe of silent observers, those being discarded by a failing medical system: I see your bright light and your perma-smile.

You have the HLA-DR gene—you are the canary in the coal mine. We lead with love and we protect our own. Use the 5 D’s to seal the leaks:

1. De-Stress: Activate your vagus nerve. Hum while you do the dishes; cats purr and we must too.

2. Detox: Flush the lead, plastic and trauma stored in your tissues since birth with autophagy and red light.

3. De-bloat: Heal the “environment belly” and seal your body barriers.

4. Declutter: Turn your “trash can” home back into a temple.

5. Deep Sleep: Achieve the ultimate goal of peaceful stools, peaceful sleep and a peaceful soul.

The Legacy Watch List

To see where we are headed if we don’t change the MAiD and disability laws by March 17 2027, please watch:

• The Plastic Detox (Netflix): To understand the fertility crisis and how plastics caused my 9 miscarriages.

• 2073 (Prime Video): A glimpse of life outside the matrix.

The love you are seeking is already yours. Stop setting yourself on fire to keep others warm and set your soul on fire instead.
Your relationships are dictated by your worth. Your relationship to Mother Earth, food, drink and other souls are all dictated by your sense of worth and unhealed father/mother wounds.

Parent your inner child and give it the love you wish you had growing up.

Within as without. Inner peace = Outer peace = World peace.

With all my love,

Momma Lovey Peace
Dee Anne Berry
Non-Toxic Mom to Noah’s Non-Toxic Nest in a toxic world.

Addiction Peace, The “Lovebirds” Anniversary & The Cellular Cost of Staying

Today is a sacred day in our nest. It is a day of triple celebration, reflection and the bittersweet beauty of transition.

Not only am I celebrating 3,071 days since I reclaimed my power back from booze on Nov 21, 2017, but it is also my miracle son Noah’s 27.5-year half-birthday. Born after nine miscarriages because I had a toxic womb and a leaky body, he is truly my “heart with wings.”

Adding to the joy, today is the 3rd anniversary of Noah and his love. Witnessing their relationship right here in our non-toxic nest has been the greatest gift. They communicate, they lift each other up and they check in from 1–10 with each other. It is a family affair. It is the healthiest, most rooted relationship I have ever seen—because it was built on a foundation of peace.

Addiction Peace Starts with the Parents

People ask me how Noah reached nearly three decades without a single drop or puff.
It wasn’t luck. It was a conscious, daily architectural build. I put a healthy fear of the cycle in him because I knew our HLA-DR genetics meant his body wouldn’t just “process” toxins—it would be hijacked by them.

But Addiction Peace isn’t just about substances. It is about our addiction to toxic souls.

The Mother-Father Wound & The CDR

Most of us stay in “heartless” relationships because we are subconsciously trying to heal a mother or father wound from our own first 1,000 days. We stay “for the kids,” not realizing that a heartless partner triggers a chronic Cell Danger Response (CDR) in everyone under that roof.

When you stay in toxicity, you teach your children’s cells that “survival mode” is love.
I stayed too long “taking notes” on narcissists, but the final lesson was this:

You cannot heal a person committed to their own toxicity, but you can stop the damage to your future cells and soul.

A Tip for Parents: Vulnerable Connection

If you want your children (especially boys) to share more, do something active with them.
Don’t just ask “how are you”—ask where they are from 1–10 mentally and physically.

At our meals, we ask:

1. What was the highlight?

2. What was the hard part?

3. What did you learn new today?

Those of us with a love of learning have younger brains. At an Earth age of 59.5, my cellular age is 41—and I want that for you, too!

The Bittersweet Transition

In a few months, the lovebirds will fly the nest, moving five hours away to be closer to her family. I am soaking up every talk, hug, meal and Scrabble game we have left.

As I prepare for a solo life, I am looking for another “rare bird”—a non-toxic roommate who craves stillness. No scents, no booze, no processed foods, no swearing and no man-made meds that toxic-up our cells and keep us reactive.

I am looking for a fellow “silly goose” healer and stress-cleaner who has moved from being parentified and petrified to loving their own soul and loving living solo for many years to come. If you know anyone please let them know I have non-toxic nest for them :)

The Only Person Who Can Take Care of You is YOU

I’m righting the wrongs of the “cookies” I gave when I didn’t know better.

When we know better, we must do better for cellular and spiritual renewal. We use Mother Nature’s medicine cabinet to build roots that last 100+ years.

Everything is connected.

Sending loving kindness from Canada’s capital,
Dee
Mothering Unmothered cells & soul.
Non-Toxic Mom to Noah for our nontoxic nest and yours.
Earth Age is 59.5
Cellular age is 41 and I want that for you too!

Dear Peaceful Heart,

Come close and take a deep breath. It is First Born Friday and I want to ask you something: Are you actually an introvert or is your beautiful body just intuitively protecting you from a poisonous planet?

For the Sober HSE (Highly Sensitive Entity), life often feels like navigating a winter storm without a coat. We sense the shifting moods, the hidden chemicals and the heavy frequencies of modern life. If you feel exhausted today, please know it is not because you are weak; it is because you are feeling it all.

What is an HSE vs an HSP?

You may have heard the term HSP (Highly Sensitive Person), which usually describes those who need to withdraw to a quiet “cave” to recover.

But as an HSE, you are a “Sensitive Seeker.” Your spirit is wired to engage, lead and connect with the world (the Extrovert) but your body lacks the biological “filters” to keep the toxins out (the Sensitive). Because you are brave enough to be “out there,” you hit Cell Danger Response (CDR) faster.

Sweet soul, you aren’t broken; you are a high-performance athlete running on contaminated fuel.

The First-Born Burden

On this First Born Friday, we acknowledge the weight you’ve carried. As a parentified first-born, you spent your life doing everything right. You were the tiny fixer, the little protector and the one who held the whole family together. But while you were busy taking care of everyone else, your biology was taking notes.

The Mother/Father wound didn’t just leave a mark on your heart; it primed your nervous system for a permanent state of “danger.” When you add the MTHFR and HLA-DR genes to environmental poisons like PFAS, your “detox bucket” doesn’t just fill—it overflows.

You are not the problem

If you’ve been suffering in silence, feeling like a “burden” because of your brain fog or your “leaky body,” I need you to hear me: There is nothing wrong with you. You aren’t failing at wellness. You are a finely tuned instrument living in a dissonant, contaminated world.

I have released a deep-dive investigation into the 700+ military bases harbouring toxic “Forever Chemicals” (PFAS). This isn’t just news; it is the missing piece of the puzzle for those of us told our physical distress was “just anxiety” or “mental illness.”

Watch the full investigation here:

Let’s protect our own.

We were born to be protectors and now it is time to use that strength to protect ourselves and our community. I’ve included a letter below to send to your local MP.
We are demanding that the NDDN Committee finish the study on military contamination.

It takes two minutes to send but for the first-borns and veterans suffering in silence, it could change everything.

✉️ The MP Letter Template

Subject: Urgent Action Needed on Contaminated Military Sites and Health Impacts

Dear [MP’s Name],

I am writing as a concerned citizen regarding the revelations about contaminated soil and PFAS “Forever Chemicals” on military bases across Canada.
Testimony from the NDDN Committee has highlighted alarming rates of MS, Parkinson’s and rare cancers among those living and working near these sites.

I urge you to:

1. Support the resumption and completion of the NDDN Committee’s contamination study.

2. Ensure full transparency and public access to environmental data for these sites.

3. Advocate for medical and financial support for affected veterans and civilian families.

Sincerely,
[Your Name/Address]

How are you really today, dear Heart? 💜

Share your number from 1–10 in the comments. If you feel like a burden this First Born Friday, please know that your presence is a gift to this tribe.

You are seen, you are heard and you are so deeply loved.

Sending loving kindness from Canada’s capital,

Dee
Non-toxic mom to Noah’s non-toxic nest—and yours.

Ask not whether life is treating you well, but whether are YOU treating your soul and your future cells well?

Today marks 438 Sundays of choosing my cells over my addictions.

As we wrap up National Public Health Week, I am reminded that the greatest public health act we can perform is moving our own bodies out of Sympathetic “Machine Mode” and into a state of peace. You cannot heal the public until you nurture the person.

Stop Pathologizing Your Survival

Let’s get one thing straight: C-PTSD is a response to abnormal situations, not a disorder.

You aren’t “broken.” Your body wasn’t “wrong” for being in survival mode; it was responding to a lack of a Safe Nest.

When we look at Black Maternal Health Week, we see how these systemic stressors force our biology into survival responses before we even have a voice.

We often wonder where our addictions and “guilty pleasures” began.

Look back. Those habits you are addicted to now?

They are likely the exact same treats your parents gave you to keep you quiet, to reward you or to comfort you.

We are not just craving the hit; we are trying to heal a Mother or Father wound with things that further deplete our cells.

The “Healthy” Trap

To my high-sensing, type-A perfectionist parentified, petrified firstborn athletes: we cannot outrun trauma.

I worked out too hard and lived in mouldy gyms because it was how I de-stressed.

If you cannot stop, it is an addiction. You might have clean labs but if you have a fatty liver and a damaged microbiome, your body is telling the truth your “Machine Mode” tries to hide.

The Biological Bottom Line

When you live in “Beast Mode,” you force a constant Sympathetic stress response. This “grind” is a distraction for depression.

Release the shame.

Your survival habits kept you here, but they won’t take you where you’re going.

True rebirth requires every non-toxic choice for your soul’s renewal. Healing only happens when we move into the Parasympathetic state of rest so we can move into the next phases of the DBM-5 to detox, de-bloat, declutter for deep peaceful sleep.

Stop out running trauma and treating the wound with toxins.

Start nurturing your cells & Soul to rest in peace in your moments.
The only person who can care for you is you. Not a pill.
You are nature and mother nature is your medicine cabinet.

Namaste in PTSD Peace NOW.

Sending Loving Kindness from Canada’s Capital,
Momma Lovey Dee
HSPs Non-Toxic Mom

Welcome to Sober Soul Care Sunday.

I see you. You lead with love and service but you are drowning because you’re too proud to ask for help. You’ve given up the booze, you eat organic, you stress-clean your home and your labs come back “clean”—yet you feel worse than ever.

You’re treading water and the doctors are telling you it’s “all in your head.”

This Easter, I am here to tell you: It is not mental. It is environmental. It is you pushing through the pain instead of pausing. Your worth is not in the push. It is in the Pause / paws.

Chronic stress drives your sympathetic nervous system—the fight, flight, freeze or fawn—into chronic inflammation for your cells and body. That anxiety you feel? It is neuroinflammation in your spine and brain.

You cannot begin to heal until your body knows it is safe to do so. Moving into a parasympathetic state is a choice and a practice. This is what I teach you: how to de-stress, detox, de-bloat and declutter for deep sleep, soul and cellular renewal.

There is a biological blueprint for cellular resurrection but you cannot “hustle” your way out of a cytokine storm.

There is a genetic link between Misophonia (sound sensitivity) and how our brains process environmental distress.

When your “womb and walls” are toxic, your genes cannot find peace.

I’ve been in that darkness. I’ve lived through decades of suicidal ideation that comes when your body feels like a cage, beginning at age 5.

I recently reached 4th out of 91st place in Daymond John’s Entrepreneur of Impact competition.

To continue, I had to travel—and with my history of Sick Building Syndrome and Mould Illness, I chose my “non-toxic nest” over a trophy because airplane air is very mouldy and toxic for leaky bodies.

Every ending is a rebirth. I will always choose Biological Stillness to protect my future cells and soul.

I reversed my own MS-type symptoms and internal bleeding in 4 months. No chemo. Just 3 weeks of biological stillness, baking soda fasting, autophagy lifestyle medicine, binders, showing up for my inner child aka soul who has been waiting for me to show up for her and 7 weeks of clearing the intergenerational lineage through my tears.

In this week’s new video on YouTube, I am deep-diving for my fellow health detectives into the Warburg Effect.

I implemented these protocols instinctively when I was in crisis in 2024, only recently learning the science behind how our cells “breathe” and use energy.

It ties perfectly into the message of Biological Stillness—we are moving our cells from a “fermentation/survival” state back into a “peace/oxygen” state.

If someone you love has had cancer and wants to know the root cause, this is for them.

When was the last time you cried the big cry and just kept on crying? In our trauma detox, tears are your medicine.

We live in a culture where tears are frowned upon but this is stored trauma and triggers that need to leave your body by letting go.

In 346 days, Canadian MAiD laws expand to “mental health.” We must reach the ones hanging on by a sliver of hope before they give up.

You are naturaleza and nature can heal in any environment but it cannot heal in the same environment that is making it sick.

My 5-star reviews are in: The 40-day trauma and toxin flush works.

Stop pushing peaceful heart. Start rooting.

Sending you Easter Blessings for your own cellular rebirth. If not now, when? In life we regret the things we didn’t do.

In loving kindness,

Dee Anne Berry Earth Age 59.5 | Cellular Age 41

I am Rooting for you. I love you.
Share in the comments or ask yourself: how do you show yourself and your cells love, tenderness and grace each day?

The link to this week’s deep dive on the Warburg Effect is in the comments below:

On this Good Friday—a day heavy with the weight of sacrifice—I am thinking about the “good girls” and “good boys” who were crucified by expectations before they even hit puberty.

My brother and I were altar servers and I sang in the choir, draped in the cloth of the church while living on a mouldy military base.

We were “perfect” on the outside but inside, I was petrified. We were the “fixers” who silenced our own needs to keep the peace.

To the parents reading this: please be mindful that each child is having a completely different experience with you.

In many families, the Highly Sensitive Persons (HSPs) are the ones being dismissed because they “feel” the environment so deeply that it disrupts the family’s preferred silence.

The sacrifice of the “Good Girl” or “Good Boy” is the loss of the self. Today, I am reclaiming that self.

I am choosing the peace that doesn’t require me to be a “fixer” for a system that isn’t built to see me.

For me, my environment manifested as a lifelong battle: insomnia that started at age five, IBS and SIBO since the 80s, suicidal thoughts before I even knew what they meant and self-soothing with alcohol just to find a moment of sleep.

We are taught that our pain is mental. We are told our depression is a personal failing. But I am here to tell you: It is not mental. It is environmental.

From the toxic mould in our childhood bedrooms to the mother and father wounds that leave us susceptible to abusive relationships, our stools are keeping the score of our surroundings.

In Canada, we are facing a terrifying shift where MAID (Medical Assistance in Dying) is becoming the “solution” for those whose environments have made life unbearable.

We are being offered an exit before we are offered a clean environment, a detoxed liver or a healed lineage.

I am diving deeper into this story and how we reclaim our health from Cancer, MS and autoimmune issues.

I’ll be discussing the Warburg Effect—how cancer cells thrive on sugar and fermentation—and how something as simple as baking soda was used as far back as the 1940s to shift the internal environment.

You will learn how we do this while fasting in bed to rewire our nervous system, moving from the sympathetic (fight or flight) into the parasympathetic (rest and repair).

We cannot heal anything until our bodies feel truly safe. The only thing you are doing for 40 days is finally taking care of you and renewing your cells.

You will learn the root cause of why cancer is being diagnosed earlier and the truth behind the rise in MS symptoms.

This First Born Friday, we stop the cycle of people pleasing.

The 40-Day Womb & Walls Flush isn’t just a detox; it’s an act of rebellion. It’s about reclaiming our livers from the toxins and the trauma.

We look at the liver, the lineage and the laws.

We choose to expire when we desire, not because our environment became a cage we couldn’t escape.

Today, on this Good Friday, I am asking you to stop being the sacrifice for everyone else.

I am mothering the unmothered today.
If you were the child who had to grow up too fast, you are seen. You are loved.

It’s not mental. It’s environmental. And you deserve to stay.

Lead with love and cellular peace,
Sunday represents more than a story; it is our Cellular Resurrection.

After the 40-day flush, we don't just return to 'normal'—we rise as brand-new biological beings, reclaiming our health, our liver and our right to stay.

Love your liver and leave the liquor & sugar,
Momma Lovey Peace
Providing the tools for a non-toxic nest, internally and externally.

Non-toxic Womb & Walls to heal Livers, Lineages and changing Disability & MAID Laws by March 17 2027

“Have a love of learning.” 🙏

That is the phrase I have whispered to myself every single morning for five decades. It is part of my loving-kindness prayers in the pre-dawn stillness, bathed in red light therapy while the rest of the world is still asleep.

It’s also the same blessing I sent my son, Noah, off to school with every day. In a world that often feels designed to overwhelm the sensitive, that love of learning has been my North Star.

It is what led me to understand that our struggle isn’t just “mental”—it’s environmental.

I’ve spent 55 years paying attention to the invisible as a clariaudient.

I’ve listened to the things others miss: the toxins in our "nests," the heavy frequencies of ancestral lineages and the way a congested liver and a damaged microbiome affects a leaky body and can drown a hopeful soul.

For the parentified HSP, the journey from C-PTSD to Peace feels like navigating a minefield on a poisonous planet. But I’ve heard the way through, and I’ve learned there is a path to the other side.

The BodhiBerry Peace Tree isn’t just a method; it’s a mission.

A few hours ago, I took a leap and entered the Entrepreneur of Impact competition. I didn’t make a public announcement. I just sent a few texts to those who have walked this path with me.

In two hours, we jumped from 88th place to 11th.

The momentum is a testament to the fact that people are waking up. We are tired of the toxins. We are ready to change Canadian laws. We are ready to heal our livers and our lineages so we can finally breathe.

Winning this competition provides a $25,000 grant and a global platform in Entrepreneur Magazine to amplify this message. We are currently sitting just outside the Top 10 and I am asking my fellow learners, healers and HSPs to help me bridge that gap.

Will you cast a free daily vote for the mission?

Vote Here Daily till Apr.1st

Why it matters:
Every vote is a signal that we value biohacking for peace, not just performance.

It’s a vote for legislative change and for every HSP who has been told they are “too sensitive” and too much for this world.

I am not psychic; I have just been paying attention.
And right now, I’m paying attention to the incredible shift we are creating together.

With a love of learning and a heart for peace :-)
Sending Loving Kindness from Canada’s Capital,

Dee
(Momma Lovey Peace)

Today is the Spring Equinox—the perfect moment to begin “flushing the womb and the walls.”

As we move into this new season, we are exactly 362 days away from the March 2027 MAID expansion. We have less than one year to prove that what the system calls “mental” is actually a biological injury from a poisonous planet.

Tonight: A Social Spring Soiree! 🎸

I am inviting all you beautiful souls—especially my fellow YMCA members, JS alumni and the sober-curious—to join me tonight!

• Where: The Barley Mow on Merivale Road

• What: Live music with The Bedrockers

• Why: To celebrate spring, silence the noise and connect in person.

If you have any questions about the 40-Day Wombs and Walls Trauma and Toxin Detox starting April 5th on Skool, don’t be shy!

I love helping souls understand how to use the DBM-5 (De-stress, Detox, Debloat, Declutter, Deep Sleep) to reclaim their stools, cells, sleep and their souls.

Whether you are sober, med-free or just “canary-curious” about why your labs are clean but your body is crashing—come say hi. Your worth is not in the push; it is in the pause.

I’ve linked my latest 2-hour video deep dive on the BodhiBerry Peace Tree Method below. Watch it before you come!

See you tonight on Merivale Road! 🕊️

X0 Dee

Today marks the 363-day countdown until MAID laws in Canada will accept “mental health” as the sole reason for assisted passing.

I am here to tell you: It is not mental. It is environmental.

In this first instalment of the Buddhist Biohacker’s Bible on Video, I share the root of my own systemic collapse.

For decades I was a parentified, petrified, perfectionist people pleaser and root cause Buddhist biohacker living in a war zone of mold and plastics while my labs stayed “clean.”

Even while being mindful with bamboo and natural materials, drinking gallons of water from plastic bottles introduced a constant stream of endocrine disruptors and nanoplastics directly into my blood.

The Synergistic Crash of Wombs and Walls

When your “Toxic Walls” (Mold/CIRS/MCAS) meet the “Plastic Trap” (Endocrine Disruptors) your internal signalling molecules—your “text messages”—get hacked.

This results in a Life-Threatening Leaky Body where the barrier between the toxin and the cell is gone.

As I discuss in the video my own body collapsed with MS-type symptoms after being dismissed by my doctor and my partner in my darkest hour.
Early MS can be reversed. I show you how.

The Multi-Generational “Toxic Flash” Toxicity is an ancestral inheritance. The 3-Generation Rule shows that a pregnant mother exposed to toxins affects her child and the eggs already forming in that infant’s ovaries. This is why many firstborns are “canaries in the coal mine,” born on high alert with bloated bellies and sensitive nervous systems.

Healing is a Pause, Not a Push We have 363 days to prove that what the system calls “mental illness” is a treatable biological injury. Your worth is not in the “push”—it is in the “pause.”

Join me on April 5th for a seasonal Womb and Walls Trauma and Toxin Flush. This is a mini-reset for the sober, stress cleaning health detectives who care about aging well, eating clean and living a non-toxic life on a toxic planet.
You are doing all the things and still not at peace.

We use the DBM5 (De-stress, Detox, Debloat, Declutter for Deep Sleep) to challenge the DSM5 and achieve C-PTSD peace through cellular renewal.

For decades, I lived in a state of systemic collapse.

Seizures in doctors’ offices were dismissed as “mental.”

The Intersection of Trauma & Toxins:

We have experts studying trauma inside the body (like Andy Hahn) and experts studying toxins outside the body (like John Warner) in the Netflix show the Plastic Detox. ( linked in the comments on Substack, hit the heart above in your email and it will bring you to the website)

I am living at the intersection of both.

When your “Toxic Walls” (Mold/CIRS) meet the “Plastic Trap” (Endocrine Disruptors), your signalling molecules—your internal text messages—get hacked.

This results in a Life-Threatening Leaky Body. What is happening to Mother Earth is happening to our microbiome.

The Evidence:

• Clare Watson (2024): Microplastics found in blood clots.

• Endocrinology (2015): BPA disrupts health across 5 generations.

• Nanoplastics (2024): Linked directly to Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s.

Comment “PEACE” below to join the reset if you have renovated your home from mould and still sick or want to learn how to heal when you are in safe space with no toxic souls.

We can’t heal in the same environment that is making you sick.

Sending Loving Kindness from Canada’s Capital,
Momma Lovey Peace,
Mothering the Unmothered for C-PTSD peace

Yesterday, the world celebrated women. But for the First-born Female Fixer, the celebration often feels like just another day carrying the heavy invisible bag of everyone else’s worries.

I am currently nursing three first-born souls back to health after the system dismissed them. They are just hanging on, stuck in the mud.

We are the ones who were “little adults” before we were even children. We are the high-sensing souls who can feel a shift in the room’s energy before a word is spoken. We lead lives of immense love but by midlife, that love has turned into a flickering candle. We are burning out because our bodies have been paying a “Fixer Tax” in cortisol, adrenaline and chronic pain for decades.

It’s not what the system calls menopause. It is CIRS, MCAS, MTHFR, histamine overload, mould illness, sick building syndrome, your lifestyle, diet and the meds you put into your body.

By midlife your body’s bucket is overflowing and leaking with leaky stools, eyes, ears, nose, chronic cough, seizures, heart attacks, panic attacks, MS and more. Our bodies are protecting us. If we won’t stop, they are making us stop.

The 59/41 Miracle
I have lived this. I am you. For 40 years, I navigated a medical system that tried to discard me, labelling my environmental illness as “mental.” Out of sheer survival and necessity, I turned to the earth and my own biology.

Since the ‘80s, I have practised a frugal, root-cause lifestyle—no man-made synthetic meds, just the deep medicine of autophagy.

The Result: I am 59 years old but my biological cells are 41.

The Peaceful Path: Stools, Sleep, Soul and Cells I want the same for you. Your ACE (Adverse Childhood Experiences) score might be high, but your future can be peaceful. Mine is 9/10.

If I can do it. You can. I have suffered unspeakable violence and abuse in almost every relationship I had. I even stayed in bad ones because at least I was being fed. When you have housing and food insecurity, having a warm nurturing meal is everything. I love food but it never loved me. I thought.

I was wrong.
I didn’t buy my way into health; I rested my way there. I mothered my unmothered self until my cells felt safe enough to stop fighting. This is the heart of the Buddhist Biohacker Bible.

• Peaceful Stools & Soil: Healing the gut and the home environment simultaneously.

• Peaceful Sleep: Recalibrating the high-sensing nervous system.

• Peaceful Cells: Using autophagy to clear out biological “trash.”

An Invitation to Peaceful U I am turning my four decades of survival into a map for you. On March 17, 2027, I am opening Peaceful U on Skool. I will teach you how to heal yourself frugally, mother the unmothered first-born fixer and training a new generation of Soul Peace Practitioners using the BodhiBerry Peace Tree Method & the DBM-5 before my time runs out.

It is time to stop the systemic discard. It is time to come home to yourself.

I have left the link to the ACE test in the pinned comment of my latest video
and the link to Skool is on Substack home page

Are you a First-born Fixer? How has the “Fixer Tax” shown up in your body? Let’s discuss in the comments.

Today, March 3, 2026, we hit the reset button.

The Lunar Eclipse is a “power surge” designed to blow out old fuses and rewire us for a higher frequency.

If you are suffering from misophonia, brain fog or chronic fatigue, it is time to stop the “guilt loops”.

Your body is an ecosystem—not a machine.

In today’s Trauma Toxin Tuesday deep-dive, we explore the Law of Symbiosis: what goes out must come in. We are using “Moon Water” to reset our frequency and wipe clean the traumas stored since the womb.

Leaky Body from a Flooded Planet

For 27 years, my son Noah has been writing the same words in my cards: “I am so proud of you. You are so strong”. I’ve spent my life fighting to stay alive—fighting CIRS, toxins and “Takers” who called me “Daft” to hide their own emptiness. I heard my son’s words, but I never felt them; I was too busy being pulled back down every time my star began to rise.

But today, sitting here in my 60th year of life, preparing for my 60th birthday this November 18th, the tears are falling—but they are massive tears of joy. In this, my Rebirth Year, I finally realized:

He’s right. I am strong. They always called me the “Finder” in my home and at work. I thought it was just a “Mom thing,” but it’s actually the Biohacker Detective in my blood. I don’t just find lost items; I find the Root Cause. And today, I found my own strength.

Sober Soul Care Sunday: My Journey with Pema

This past February, which was Heart Month, I did something just for me. I spent it in silence, attending masterclasses with my mentor, Pema Chödrön. I love silence—I loved the weeks during COVID when there were no planes in the sky. This is why I wish for Peace on Earth: for my misophonia.

If you are suffering with addiction, Pema was my mentor. When I walked through those red doors at Gampo Abbey in 2017, I finally felt at home. I found my “Why” to quit after 14 tries and on the 15th, I stopped cold turkey on November 21, 2017.

To begin healing, drink much more water than usual to flush toxins, rest and fast for three days. We don’t want to substitute one addiction for another sugar addiction.
Her teachings changed my life and as her 90th year approaches, she remains the #1 guest on my podcast bucket list.

March Awareness: Loving the Pieces You Can’t See

The calendar has turned to March and the energy has officially shifted. This month, we focus on the internal systems we often ignore:

• National Colon Cancer Awareness & National Kidney Month: This is the time to talk about the “pieces you can’t see”—your internal filtration systems that get bogged down by toxins and mould. Since 2013, I lived with symptoms that felt like cancer, but they disappeared in 3 weeks with my method once I addressed the root cause.

• National Nutrition Month: A tie-in for “loving your cells back to life” by removing fermenting “stinky toots” and chronic inflammation.

• National Women’s History Month: As I enter my 60th rebirth year, I am making my own history as a Soul Peace Doula.

• National Ethics Awareness Month: This aligns with my drive to change the MAiD laws and protect vulnerable souls before the March 17th, 2027 deadline.

Why I am Dissecting the Music of Our Youth

I am starting a weekly ritual to protect our hearts and our souls. Many songs we sang into hairbrushes as children were actually grooming us to accept toxic patterns as “love”.

In 1975, I was nine years old, rocking to “Mandy“ on repeat. Listening now with Sober Soul Care ears, those lyrics are a masterclass in the “hoovering” and control of a narcissist. I will be posting the full “Biohacker Detective” breakdown of the lyrics in the comments below—be sure to check it out!

The 2027 Crossroads

We have exactly one year left before March 17th, 2027—my parents’ wedding anniversary—when Canada’s MAiD laws may expand. I understand that darkness because I was hanging on to that date myself when doctors dismissed my pain. I am no longer fighting to stay alive; I am living to be Sovereign.

Thank you to those who have been patient; there will be many videos coming your way this month to help you heal and explain these complex topics as easily as possible.

My De-Stress with Dee Tip: When you’re ready to parent yourself, you must stop doing things that harm your future Cells. Stop the inflammation and love your cells back to life.

Member Tip: If you are reading this in your email, please hit the heart button at the very top! It translates this post directly to the Substack app—the best way to connect with other Rare Birds in the tribe and help our community grow.

The Vulnerable Question: Have you ever realized that a song you loved as a child was actually describing the very patterns you had to break as an adult?

My method only works and will cause harm if you use medicine, drink, eat processed foods, drink things from a can or plastic water bottles, love toxic souls and live in toxic walls.
IF you are a healthy person who is sick with sick kids and being medically gaslit, The BodhiBerry Peace Tree Method will help you rebirth your cells frugally when you are ready to pause for 3 weeks or more depending on how many traumas you have.
It took me 7 weeks to heal my mind and stools and 4 months to ditch the cane.

I love you so MUCH!!
You are Safe.
I got YOU!

Momma Lovey Dee,
Mothering the Unomothered
on your path to PTSD peace on a poisoned planet.

As firstborns, we didn’t just enter a family; we entered a laboratory.
We were the “Beta Testers” for parents who often hadn’t yet looked at their own mother and father wounds.
If they were unhealed, we were drafted into service as the “third parent” or the “emotional stabilizer” before we even knew how to stabilize ourselves.

1. The Trauma-Tuned Body

Many of us began our journey with a challenging birth—a “crisis mode” entrance that set our internal thermostat to “High Alert” from second one.

• The Physical Toll: From having tonsils removed early to dealing with the “toxic flush” of maternal overload, our bodies were the first to absorb the environmental and emotional impact.

• The “Machine” Fallacy: We treat our bodies like high-performance machines—eating clean, working out and “stress cleaning” to maintain control. But we are nature, not machines. When our brain feels like it’s on fire and our sleep is off, it’s our nature screaming for a “pause”.

2. The Healer’s Magnetism

Because we grew up as emotional stabilizers, we often attract “Dark Souls”—individuals who seek out our high-sensing energy because we are wired to “fix” and “feel” for others. We carry the weight of the world until our cells begin to buckle under the pressure.

3. Somatic Sovereignty:
The Reach & Tap, how I release pain without medication when pain arises in the body.

We don’t always need a hospital to find our way back to centre. When the trauma tries to “stick out” or manifest as physical pain:

• The Reach: We stretch to the sky and bend back with hands extended to create space in the torso, moving past the “punches” of the past.

• The Tap: We use rhythmic tapping to ground the nervous system and remind our cells that they are safe now.

• The Light: Using tools like red light therapy on the neck, tummy, spine, knees, where ever it hurts to soothe the “inflammation of the soul” and finally allow for restorative sleep.
  
  All of my frugal lifesaving tools are listed here: I gave many the wrong link, please use this one.
  Amazon Zen Den
  

This Saturday, ask yourself: Am I still beta-testing for a life that isn’t mine? Or am I ready to be the Firstborn of my own Peace?

Join the conversation: Rest in Peace Now.
Don’t wait for the end to find the stillness you deserved at the beginning. 🙏
Sending Loving Kindness from Canada’s Capital,
Momma Lovey Dee
Mothering the Unmothered to rebirth our cells.
Doctors fix broken bones, not our biology.
The Bodhiberry Peace Tree Method does
loving our life long bloated Buddha Belly back to health
for peace on earth on a poisonous planet.

To my loyal community, today is the 21st—a day that vibrates with the frequency of my freedom. On this day on Nov 21st 2017, I took my power back from booze and smoke. But the greatest battle was yet to come: the battle for my biology.

Many of you know me as Motherpeace, mothering the parentified and petrified first-borns who have spent a lifetime feeling like a “baby burden.”

I am writing this from a place of deep restoration.

I was the parentified, petrified problem solver—a personal trainer and competitive athlete with a perma-smile, secretly drowning in the physical fallout of C-PTSD, toxic mould and toxic souls, despite never relying on man made synthetic meds.

The Reality of the Poison Planet

• Doctors heal broken bones but not our biology.

• The Nutritional Void: I was medically gaslit by many doctors who take a weekend course on food for their entire education on nutrition. Every doctor I spoke to about reversing fatty liver and healing our microbiome had no knowledge of this.

• The Testing Barrier: In the height of my crisis, I asked for a simple environmental illness urine test so I could start detoxing, but they had no way of testing for the air I was breathing.

• My Temple, My Choice: I have never used man-made meds or synthetic prescriptions because they do more harm to our microbiome; I had not taken an antibiotic as an adult because of this.

• Dismissed in the Storm: When I presented in an autonomic cytokine storm—with blood pressure off the charts and muscles seizing up—I was dismissed and asked, “Is this mental?”

• The Final Betrayal: Doctors pushed meds on me constantly and refused to take me on as a patient if I said no because I knew it was not mental. I am still waiting for the medical records they refuse to give me.
  
  This is why my youtube channel exists.
  
  It was to protect me because I knew how to take care of my mind and had excellent sleep hygiene as a root cause clairaudient buddhist biohacker using frugal autophagy lifestyle medicine for 40 years.
  
  My mom was put in the Royal more than once. It is a mental hospital across the street from where she worked which was filled with mould.
  She worked as a lab tech at Agriculture Canada for decades and the when the blew the building up, they were unable to rebuild on the land because it the soil was too toxic.
  
  This soil is across the street from the Civic hospital which is also filled with mould.
  As a high sensing soul, my body reacts every time I am in it.

Protecting My Peace in the Darkest Hour

Even when I was being dismissed, I had all the tools in my toolbox to manage my mind.

Even while loving toxic souls, I was still protecting my peace.

I still led with love, kept my childlike wonder and a life long love of learning, a detective of my own health.

I still bounce out of bed each morning with glee to be here honouring the gift of life. I love birthdays—not just mine but everyone’s—because it is a gift to be in this present moment.

The BodhiBerry Path to Peace

BodhiBerry Peace Tree Method from my upcoming book, will detox your tissues and cells and rewire your biology.
It is in your upcoming book, the Buddhist Biohacker’s Bible.

It is about mothering the unmothered for a non-toxic peaceful soul.
We are mothering inner peace in your womb and your walls for Peace on Earth.

Connect With Me

I am moving more of my energy into the Substack app! I am posting more notes and doing more lives there, so please check in often. You can also find me on my five accounts on Instagram and YouTube, each with a different message and daily quotes to help you get through the day with deep peace for peaceful sleep.

Sending loving kindness from Canada’s capital with our fantastic high snow banks!

Go Canada Go as we head into the Olympics tomorrow on Sunday February 22nd against the US!
I am sending all my good mojo energy to team Canada and the Olympians out there.
Stay safe—mould loves gyms and toxic airplane air.

Momma Lovey Dee 🥰🙏☮️🌎💜✌️

P.S. When I took my boot off after shovelling this morning, I got a heart wink from the universe. A reminder that love is all around us and we are all connected. I love that it was on this day, the 21st of February, when I fell in love with a goose in 2016, my most impactful relationship for soul growth.

This is why I workout 3 minutes a day while making my teas—for functional fitness. I do it so I can shovel my neighbours’ paths so they don’t hurt their hearts. I see them treating their bodies like trash cans, not temples. I worry, so I help. :)