How I Live on $100 a Month for Food: The Fasting Windows for Deep Cellular Repair & The Realities of Systemic Invisibility
Grab a tea, this is a long one :) Learn how to navigate the data behind a strict water and healing tea fast with the DBM-5, the truth about being overfed but undernourished and a major update on Berry’s Biological Stillness Bible.
How are you sweet soul from 1-10?
Take a true breath before you answer that.
If Mom didn’t tell you, did you know that your body can only heal when it is in a completely paused, calm state?
Did you know that if your nervous system is stuck in a chronic survival response, your cells drop into a defensive lockdown called the cell danger response where they literally harden their membranes and refuse to heal?
For many first born who were born in a toxic womb, this c-ptsd response has been running since the womb. Your peace tree can’t heal till it knows it is safe to do so.
If you are feeling the quick, scattered energy of this Gemini New Moon, you aren’t alone. It is a time when the mind wants to race but your body is asking for something much deeper: grounding.
Many of us are cat people, right?
Lifelong companions like Thumper are our greatest teachers along with our children. Look at how a cat purrs to regulate its body and heal its tissues—it is a natural frequency of peace.
As a human animal, you have the exact same built-in biohack: you can hum.
When stress hits—when the world feels too loud or the environmental toxins feel too heavy—that is the moment to start humming. It is the fastest way to drop out of the cell danger response, calm a scattered, overwhelmed mind and step back into the safety of your physical temple.
The Science of the Cell Danger Response: Why Fasting Fails in a Crisis
For the health detectives out there looking at the data, let’s talk about the foundation of cellular repair: The Cell Danger Response (CDR). When your body detects a threat—whether it is environmental mould, synthetic chemical toxicity, emotional trauma or chronic stress—your cells actively harden their membranes.
They stop producing energy, halt normal metabolism and drop into a defensive lockdown and why I had a bloated Buddha Belly life long as a primal personal trainer.
Your human animal must understand this: Healing only happens in a paused, calm state. If your nervous system is trapped in chronic fight-or-flight, your cells are stuck in CDR. Trying to force a prolonged, multi-day water fast while locked in this danger response causes more harm than good. The body perceives the lack of food as an additional life-threatening stressor, spiking cortisol and exhausting the adrenals.
You cannot starve a cell that is already fighting for its life. The system must first know it is finally safe to pause, drop its guard and heal. We do this by clearing synthetic scents, grounding our feet to Mother Earth and using the physical vibration of humming to switch the vagus nerve back into rest-and-digest mode.
I answer all your fasting questions on SKOOL @ PeacefulU.
The Microbiomental Connection & Reclaiming Your Sanctuary
Your brain is your most energy-hungry organ. You are energy so you must be deeply mindful of what you are nurturing that energy with. The truth is, the only true fuel needed—the only fluids and energy that sustain us—come straight from Mother Earth.
We live in an overfed, undernourished society. For decades, listening to the body’s unique rhythm rather than a clock has been the only way I survived after 30 years of HEAVY drinking. This is how my lifestyle can be sustained on just $100 a month for food today.
But let’s be completely transparent about what it means to live on $100 a month for food when you are invisible to the system.
You might know what it feels like to not qualify for disability because there is not a single OHIP doctor who can diagnose environmental illness here in Canada’s Capital.
Conventional medicine simply does not have the diagnostic tools and the disability sector doesn’t even know what this biology is. I just wanted a pee test for toxin levels and they don’t have the tools. Functional medicine does because Mother Nature is our medicine cabinet.
And why is a diagnosis impossible? Because living a clean life, taking no medications and treating the body like a temple means labs come back completely clean.
On paper standard tests can’t find anything “wrong.”
When it has been this way for a lifetime, the system’s immediate default is to claim it is all mental.
Imagine presenting an active autonomic flare right there in the doctor’s office, only for the physician to look at the charts, look away, nod and ask your partner, “Is this mental?”
A simple nod yes and off you are sent for another mental health evaluation where you end up being the teacher because you already know how to heal c-ptsd responses holistically.
A lifelong fear of doctors is a natural response when you witness how they treat mothers and children. So you stop going. You search for the root cause on your own.
The system fails people like us because we make up only 1.1% of the population. We are the High Sensing Souls whose nervous systems and cellular blueprints do not fit into mass-produced clinical boxes. Because they cannot measure this precision with their outdated tools, they write us off.
Survival forces you to become your own doctor.
And for the parentified Souls who grew up showing up as people-pleasers, serving to survive and leading a life of love, a heavy truth remains.
You can pour love into so many souls, yet not a single one asks how you are doing over a two-year period while you grow weaker each day.
If you are carrying that exact same quiet ache right now, sweet soul, please know I see you.
It is the kind of profound exhaustion that led my son Noah and me to sit down and hold each other through one of the most tender, difficult conversations a mother and child can have.
We had to softly face the reality of this physical temple growing weaker. I looked at my beautiful boy and told him with all the love in my heart that there won’t be a funeral.
I am choosing to donate my body to science so they can take care of the rest and lift that final earthly burden from his shoulders.
Even through that grief, those loved ones who drifted away are still held daily in Loving Kindness prayers. It is a gentle realization that souls who are disconnected from their own inner child care simply cannot connect vulnerably with another.
When isolation by the world feels that heavy, your daily nourishment becomes your ultimate sanctuary. If the world will not protect your biology, you must protect it yourself with what you put into your temple.
Mainstream perspectives will look at eating once a day and relying on just five safe foods to survive a distressed belly as an eating disorder.
But that one meal a day triggers autophagy—the body’s natural cellular cleanup—which is exactly what keeps a system alive through years of heavy stress or heavy drinking. When the body actually needs nourishment, it is fed. It is never deprived but it is rarely hungry.
Fun Fact: Longer fasts when fighting something actually provide more energy. To be completely clear, this means a strict water fast supported by raw, healing teas.
In moments of absolute crisis, I did a three-week fast with a 1/4 tsp of baking soda, this gives the system the space to completely overhaul itself.
But this can only happen when the nervous system has been safely paused and calmed out of the Cell Danger Response.
We stay in bed with the DBM-5 to cry out stored trauma, I cried for 7 weeks, it is a sacred time to rest and to only serve you and your cells. The DBM-5 course is on Youtube as well for the health detectives.
When the body is properly regulated, a 3–5 day water and healing tea fast once a month when needed is the magic window for deep cellular healing for women.
It takes roughly 72 hours for a down-regulated nervous system to safely signal the immune system to clear out old white blood cells and regenerate new ones without triggering a spike in cortisol.
For men, the biological timeline behaves differently due to a distinct hormonal baseline. The optimal window for this deep cellular and immune reset typically peaks around a 3-day fast, hitting that sweet spot between 48 and 72 hours where stem cell activation peaks.
Alignment with these natural laws changes everything. It happened for me in May 2019, a date that completely altered my lifelong work and became what is called a true Microbiome Milestone.
After choosing sobriety in 2017, the time came to enter a specialized outpatient program for mental health in 2019 because I was wanting to expire before I desired.
The conventional system laid out its strict rules and dictated a long three-year timeline for eating disorder recovery, especially with the clinical odds stacked against a woman over 50.
But right at that exact same moment, in May 2019, landmark, massive research on the human microbiome was published. It felt like a direct wink from Mother Earth, confirming what intuition already deeply knew: our gut, our stools and our mental health are all completely connected through the microbiomental axis.
By quietly ignoring their rigid timelines, treating the gut as the absolute foundation and working with biology, that heavy three-year recovery sentence was cut by two-thirds.
There was no need to stay trapped in their system for three years. Graduation came in just one year in March 2020 when COVID hit and I have been serving silent observers in crisis, silently each day ever since.
Grounding for the Months Ahead
Astrologer Pam Gregory has shared that we are entering a historic three-month period across June, July and August. Cosmic shifts are coming that will challenge global food supplies and agriculture.
Instead of moving into fear, take your power back. Get your hands into the soil, plant your own food and connect with the dirt. If you want a bit of laughter while learning to love the earth, watch Zach Galifianakis in This Is a Gardening Show on Netflix. Getting dirty is medicine.
Protecting My Energy: A Deep Community Update
There are a lot of moving pieces in this world right now. Behind the scenes, individuals navigating severe crisis are being supported every single day. To protect this biology and ensure the ability to show up for those who need it most, there will be an intentional pull-back with less content across the main feeds this summer.
The primary focus right now is completing Berry’s Biological Bible (our Buddhist Biological Bible) for you. I will connect with you all once a month with articles.
This book is a sacred legacy project meant for my first-born son, Noah and for you. You need to know what you don’t know about your own body, your environment and your power.
Because this information is so vital, it will not be held back until final publication. Each chapter will be released raw and in real-time inside our PeacefulU community on SKOOL. If you want to read along as the chapters are poured out, that is where you need to be. The founding rate is good till Sept. 5th when the price goes to 55.00 when the Bible is out.
Connect With Me Daily
While main posts will be fewer, you can still tune into the daily rhythm on YouTube for fresh community updates, videos and daily Shorts dropping at 7:00 PM on Sat & Sun. If my energy is weak, I have to pause to protect me first so at times there might not be shares at 7pm.
Here is the live weekend sanctuary schedule:
Saturday Night @ 7:00 PM: Couch Chats with Momma Lovey & Thumper. We deep-dive into the “what your mom didn’t tell you” topics, environmental healing and how to protect your temple while listening to the new songs I wrote for our Peace for Geese mission, saving our own before March 17 2027.
Sunday Night @ 7:00 PM: Sober Soul Songs. This is where the nervous system lullabies and original music tracks live to help you vibrate at a higher frequency. You can also find new music weekly here for your favourite streaming service: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/mommaloveypeace/momma-loveys-light-geese-for-peace
We have 7 songs for the label to date and the videos are on youtube each Sunday.
This brings great glee. A nice balance from the daily crisis support along with officiating Buddhist weddings.
Take a deep breath. Start humming. Get your hands in the dirt. You are exactly where you need to be.
Are you ready to hum and heal?
You are the medicine sweet soul. You got this. You are Love. You are Peace. You are the Medicine.
Sending Loving Kindness from Canada’s Capital, Dee :)
I am rooting for you and your inner child. We got this!
A mindful note: I have closed all comments for our silent observers to protect our cells from reactive souls. If you are in crisis reach out to me on LinkedIn at Destresswithdeesos I help souls for free because I believe healthcare should be accessible to all including the homeless who I am trying to reach the most.
